Happy Weekend + A Personal Update

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This post is for my mom. The quote above describes her perfectly – she’s smart, beautiful and full of life. Always brimming with enthusiasm and big ideas. Always ready to help me decorate a new house and celebrate a birthday with lots of cake and balloons.

But now her fight with pancreatic cancer is almost over. When she was diagnosed in February I had no idea how awful this cancer would be. It has taken its toll so quickly that it still doesn’t seem real.

It feels so weird to write this. I can’t imagine my vibrant, loving mother not being here. I can’t imagine that my children will grow up not knowing their amazing Mimi.

I’ll be spending lots of time with my mom over the next few days, soaking her up as much as I can. So next week I’m turning over the blog to my fabulous contributors to be with my family.

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  1. christine pethers says

    Oh girls , what can I say that hasn’t been said already ? . I have been there before with my Dad , I still miss him . But given time you will remember all the good things about your Mum . This awful so painful time that you girls are going thru will always be there in the back of your memories but with time what you will remember about her will be the good things , you will be able to look at photos or memories and not sob , but smile remembering the fun and laughter .in a way its a bit like childbirth – at the time it hurts like hell but often very quickly you have wonderful memories and thoughts instead of pain . And I dont mean to trivialise things , I just have realised how good god is to enable us to cope with the pain . I’m rambling – I’m sorry . I will be thinking of all of you over the coming days.You girls have eachother – lean on each other and God and you will get thru this
    love Chris

  2. Deb says

    Stephanie and Susanna – My heart breaks to hear this. I am so very sorry.

    I am reeling from my own Mom’s diagnosis of pancreatic cancer, back at the end of August.

    “Soak” your Mom up as much as you can for all of the time you have left. I hope to do the same for as long as my Mom is still with us. I hope I can be as strong as you both have been. My prayers are with your Mom, you, and all of those who love and will miss her.

    I don’t really know how to handle this, but I will cherish all of the wonderful traits and memories of Mom being my Mom, just as you are doing.

    Your Mom has certainly left her mark on this world.

    God Bless all of you.

  3. says

    Stephanie,
    My heart breaks to read this. I hate cancer! Lost a few loved ones recently to it.
    Thinking of you and sending an extra prayer and hug your way.
    Enjoy these moments with her!
    Anna

  4. says

    Oh Stephanie. Not you too! Oh my goodness. I’m sorry if I missed a post about your Mum having cancer. I didn’t know. Spend every second with her. I lost my Dad to pancreatic cancer so I know what you’re going through. Enjoy your time. Your Mum will be in my prayers.

    All my love,
    Anne xx

  5. sonia chavarrìa says

    It is hard what your mom, you and your family are living. My sister died 4 years (cancer)… While she was sick I visited her house every day, I only had in my mind to be with her…becouse soon I will never see her….Nowdays I have in my mind her smiles and love….I miss Isabel but I know in the heaven there is not paing and she is happy. My prays for you and your beautiful mother….Blessin cover your lives…Love, Sonia

  6. Susanna says

    Just a little note to underline what my sister said about our Mother–she is the most special lady, and my sister has lots of her qualities as well as you all have seen first hand :) Thanks for all of your thoughts and prayers for her.

    • Janet Ambler says

      Steph & Sus, you have described your Mom so well. As her sister, I have always had a loyal confidante and best friend whose company was just the best. I remember her post to your blog a few months ago, and was amazed, yet again, at the depth of her wisdom. Whatever she did, she gave it her all, including raising two towheaded little girls who have grown into amazing women–sisters who share the same bond–who will keep her spirit alive in their own hearts and lives.

  7. says

    Stephanie: so sorry to hear, there’s no great thing to say except that you had the amazing experience of getting to know just how incredible your mom is… something you can certainly pass to your little ones. sending love and hugs.

  8. says

    I’ve been thinking about you & your family today–I hope you’re able to spend a lot of quality time together over the next week. It is just so monumentally unfair to lose someone like this. But your mom’s legacy will definitely live on through you–you are a dreamer and a doer too.

  9. says

    Stephanie – your mother sounds like the most amazing woman. I’m so so so sorry to hear this news, and I’ll be thinking of you lots these next couple of days. Take all the time you need, it’s the most important thing right now. Hugs.

  10. Joannie Sygnet says

    Reading posts such as yours are always heart rending. Take time. Your Mom will live on for your daughter through your memories and words. Love much.

  11. katherine says

    i am so sorry – i hope that you get some great quality time and can turn off for a bit – my thoughts with you and your family.

    <3 katherine

  12. says

    I am so sorry to hear about your mother. I was diagnosed with stage III cancer two years ago and know how devastating this can be. I am blessed in that I have been doing well the last few months. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

  13. says

    Oh, my. I had no idea you were going through this. My mom has been fighting an aggressive Stage 4 cancer for a couple of years now, and I can’t even think of the time when I’ll have to recognize that the fight might be over (even though I feel that day is getting ever closer). In fact, I’m leaving for Nashville today, as her last chemo treatment has landed her in the ICU for a week. Anyway, my thoughts are with you, and soak up all the time you can.

  14. says

    my prayers are with you. prayers for strength & courage. and for moments of peace and beauty shared with your family. you are such a beautiful soul, so i can only imagine how delightful your mom is.
    sending you SO much love. <3

  15. says

    Oh Steph! My own mums battle with brain cancer was lost in April. I know all of the emotions and fears you are experiencing. My thoughts are with you and your mum. I hope she is able to face this last part of the battle with peace.

  16. says

    Oh Stephanie, I’m so sorry. I know what it feels like to watch the evil C word take down someone you love. My dad died from brain cancer when I was 14.

    I’ll be thinking about you guys. And if you’re ever interested in collaborating on a cancer fundraiser, I’m totally in.

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